PRINCE/PRINCESS have arrived in the Kingdon

Yesterday was my last paper in my 4 years uni life in UTAR...The paper was quite tough but just let it be already...I just hope I can just pass all my exams and graduate...My feelings at the moment was NOTHING...surprise is NOTHING...Neither did I feel sad or happy at all..Just have a chit chat with my coursemates and then off with my gang

Anyway, after the exams I have several gathering with my frens...The gathering was superb...SUPERB!!!We laughed as loud as we can, take as many pics as we can...And thanks to someone who got lost at somewhere and make me "kintio" a while by driving on the wrong part of the road...

Although there are some points in our 4 year life there are seceral dramas happened, but I just wish to have those happy ones with me and leave all the sad ones behind..I guess no points to keep remember those sad ones and I keep on procrastinating about it..That persons don't even know I procrastinating right?

However, I just hate some people who takes things for granted...That particular person is a real selfish typical type of person..That person action is like getting worst and worst......Excuse me, you might be the prince/princess at home or to some people but not for us...It not like our plan which we have planned so hard and because of you one person, the whole wide world need to change the plan just to adapt to you...Just because of your stupid selfishness we need to move our plan which by moving it make the plan more ocmplicated...Cannot go ma say cannot la..Is not like you din go with us you got no other plan...There are so many people helping you plan programme ma...What the...FRUSTRATING!!!!

Further, it's not like the whole wide world need to announce their plan to you and let you choose to follow or not to follow...Damn it!!Did you do the same on the other hand??The answer is NO!!Did you make an announcements to the whole wide world and asking people around whether wanna follow you?NO is the answer again...And why the HELL you wanna people announce to you their plan and invite you on the other hand??Another selfish again...

And just because prince/princess need to serve VIPS and need the whole wide world change their plan just because of you one person and which the reasons giving by you maybe is the most stupid and lamest reasonof all time..Which the reason cannot be a fact...And the whole wide world just because of you prestigious VIP, everyone need to have dinner late at night..Lucky, I am a smart gal who choose not to follow this stupid plan by having dinner late!!!

Hey, stop being a faker la ho...DAMN IT!!!I feel like vommitting everytime I see your action...You're just making us tired with you la...And a small matter can be made real big by you..And whatever words we never say you could just make it as a FACT which has been quoted by us..WHAT THE HELL!!!Stop telling people what other did not quote la..I just feel like yelling to you or maybe in front of you just like what KAY TSE did in her song,"Yelling"

Since your other country's people worship you more than us, than leave us this country...We just found out we could live in peace and harmony without you..I am starting to be an evil person again I guess...And does everyone do anything have to give you the reason??Even when we do something, the all mighty Majesty also we no need give reasons and yet we need give or find any lame reasons to answer the prince/princess question..DAMN IT again!!!You think only the prince/princess can drive around in the city?Come on la, you only can drive in your kingdom or maybe country la...FOOLISH!!!

Touched..

Honestly, I am very touched today for what have happened...

What happened??

Well,I just keep to myself...

Thanks...

Maybe thanks will not be enough...

Thanks to my dearest...

Complaint Filed In

Well someone filed a complaint to me the other day...

Someone complained that I rather play Zuma rather than accompanying him either chatting in msn or hanging on the phone...

Then he complained that I rather go accompany my friends sing K rather than following on a short makan trip to place where I always wanna go makan...

Then now, someone complained again, I always didn't reply message and always forget what I promised...

And now my complaint is..."Wei, what actually you want one?"

Enough is enough

I cant take it no more...I really, really cant take it anymore...Words are getting harder and harder for me to digest...And I finally cant no longer control my emotions...I had been so down recently till I did not know whether I am real happy or wat...

*sigh*...What era is this???Still need match-making??Did you ever ask my opinion or decision??If I tried match-making you and others, what will you do then?I cant take it no more...I felt suffocated till I felt irritated..My long holding tears finally is rolling down just rolled down...

I never self claimed I am top student, and I just wanna have some achievement..Is there any wrongs with this??Can anyone tell me??Does that mean once I have taken some award I MUST bear with every single stuffs which irritate me?You know what, once is more than enough...All these are not what I want at all...I am just hating all these...

Match-making, irritating words, sarcastic comments, etc etc...Oh man...What in the world are all these shits??Can anyone tell me??

Does that mean if I don't share my love-life with others mean no one is after me? I just wanna keep everything just like this...And I feel that it is better be friends...Ok??Just stop it...I know what I want...I know I am not prepared to face any new love now at the moment...I know I am not prepared to start any relationship and what matters to me most...No one touches my heart yet...I am happy with my current life and who are you to just come in my life and change my life??

It is scary to see everything changes so suddenly...Well, people are right..nothing last..really nothing last...I am tired..real tired...from the day I came back for my new semester, I never seem real happy...If you guys ever think I am happy because I got an award, this was real wrong wrong wrong...If I could turn back times, I will choose never participate and just be a normal CHONG YAR CHING...

The current me...I just cant be myself..I have been constraint from doing this and doing that...Maybe I should blame myself for caring what other ppl said about me or watsoever...I know I shouldn't...But this is just me...I started or maybe tends to ignore what ppl trying to say about me..Still, those words are just getting uglier when I was trying to absorb all the other words...

Let me share something...I wish to achieve something good to make my resume better..So I fight hard for it...So, *someone* is trying to know how to get or maybe try to be a successful surveyor and *someone* is trying to know how can tat person achieve it..So what the difference me and *someone*??So why could someone comment on what I do when tat *someone* is also doing something similar to me then???

I am just sick and tired of all those sort called or maybe self claimed to be my friends people..Never think I am stupid not knowing what you are doing...I just choose not to care but that does not mean you can take advantages of me ok???

DAMN It...I was stress till the max until I dunno how express my anger and I just took a piece of paper and start writing lots of bad words...(Ok la, my bad words are basically shit and damn only)...

Enough...enough..Sometimes people just dunno what is enough...DAMN it!!!

ALIVE!!!

Well...Since long I blog bout my status...

Anywhere...Week 13 this week...

One more week for my undergraduate study...

Then I'll be sitting for my FINAL...

Then...

Oh my...How time flies...

Will blog more soon...

I am still alive...

Oh ya..another contract admin test on wednesday..ADUI!!!See ya ppl!!!

Cham Life

I feel like burning my conrtact admin 2 notes now...

Havin a test tomorrow and I am still procrastinating...

Oh man...

However,

Still cannot burn it...

Final coming...How can burn...

Works are still piling...

More test coming...

Next week FYP due...

Cham!!!

A word

One word...


"STRESS"


SOS needed....

Chong Yar Ching,Jia you le!!!

Done with my Contract Admin 2 Test 1...Then will be coming another two test for this subject...

Next,my Value Management individual assignment plus a group project...Group project we are doing some cost management on an aviation museum...*fainted*..We are lucky enough that we do not need to produce autocadd drawing...I am weak in autocadd!!!!I hate 3D cos I never can imagine anything...SSShhhh...

Then,Professional Practice which I don't even know my dear professor teaching..How gonna sit for test???

International Construction...One individual assignment,One group assignment and quiz...which the quiz we can't find any answer from our notes...

Lastly, Thesis...*sigh*...Waiting for replies on my questionnaire...Everyday waited excitedly...but days gone, getting much sad...Now no longer have the great feeling as disappointment is something which I have get used off...

Everything is so uncertain...What I can do is only pray...and continuous prayer...I think I have been quite lucky at least I do get reply from my random sending of questionnaire...I have sent questionnaire to strangers whom I never see or meet..When I got back my first questionnaire by post, the joyfulness just words cannot be explained....Thanks to Mr Sim Khian Hui from Titanium Sdn. Bhd for being my first respondents...

As day passes by, I am getting much mentally tired...I seem to get enough of sleep just that class has been too long..Everyday 8 am class and class end almost 5 pm everyday...Who can survive???By noon time, I will be start "traveling"..From Great Wall of China,then to Hokkaido, later maybe to Disneyland, and lastly maybe to Old Trafford....

Though everyday is feeling real tired, but with the support from everyone, my family members who I always receive message which made me felt real warm and especially *you* who almost everyday give me support and listen to my happiness and sadness accompanying me...I will tell myself they are even harder than me...because they all still need share my problems...

The kite flying session on Sunday was superb...As I was able to release some of my stress and then sweat..Whew...the feeling was great...I just knew I can fly kites...I was able to shout and laugh as loud as I could...It's so nice...Thanks...

Be strong Chong Yar Ching!!!You can overcome everything!!!

Need to get back to reality...Stick stamp on envelope to post my questionnaire!!=(

Iron cloth for photo taking session 2molo...Things just won't finish...I do envy Ming Ming who can still shopping until so fun!!!Adui...

You're the one...

You know what...I am tired guessing what people are thinking...I thought that I have let go everything..but indeed I am not...Yesterday,after chatted with you so long, I realised that Ido still mind everything...Maybe you're right, I should not mind so much as nothing I can do to change the whole situation...Further, you think that I have done more than enough...After listening to your words and I recall back and put everything back into pieces..One by one like jigsaw puzzle, indeed yes I am...Thanks for reminding that...

I am those who tends to think a lot...Though sometimes I keep telling myself, let go...and I thought I have let go, but I am not...And you're right, if I really dun mind all those things,well maybe I may have given up tat person...You're so right!!!

And you tell me that it good that I start keeping things from other people, and do not tell out my things as often as like I used to be, you also tell me that I should not trust people so easily and must have borders...Though I jokingly tell you that you are one of those people I should beware of which almost drive you crazy...Hahahaha.....

Maybe this is the way they are already....Their judgment will never change about people though some people have changes already...Mindset this is what I called...Sometimes, maybe we just need to jump out from our world and try to think the positive side and not just always grab those negative side...But what to do, some people are easily been influenced by others and slowly without any realization they have changed to be another bunch of same human....But, I do sometimes think, do they ever think how do other feel when they implemented their action???For example, some people maybe like feel real happy to tell someone else what happened to them, but the response been get is like no response..It's just like the feeling one pot of cold water been splashed and spoil those people mood...

And what I can say is everyone condition is so different...We were born out not to be a perfect person..We slowly learned, changed, learned, changed...and the cycle just go on...And why don't we just give each other a opportunity to understand each other more or just been some mindset about others??Why don't just give you yourselves another chance to understand other better maybe they do have changes???

Further, we cannot say what other think is wrong...like what I said before, everyone condition is not the same...you may live your life perfectly without any worries and been protected so well...Some people are just in some turmoils which no one can understand..Every decisions made or just anything may not be what they want..But why should we judge that the action done by others is wrong when indeed you did not understand the whole bunch of craps at all???Who do not want to live in some life where it is problem free??Who wan to live in a life full with obstacles which sometimes it just so hard to handle???

Anyway, I am currently still on holiday with the "someone" which I have always mentioned...I do love surprises and thanks for your surprises...I have extended my holiday to dunno when...Depends on how everything goes...

Lastly, I just wanna clarify here, I am not a person who loves to find out other people secret or anything about others which got nothing or benefited me at all....I enjoy my current life now,so just leave me alone!!!GET A LIFE!!!!

P/S:I got a message from my bestest buddy just now...I do miss you my buddy since so long we did not meet...But cherished you as my best buddy forever..Though our relation now has been not as close as we used to be, but I know no matter what, you are always there sharing all my ups and downs and also me sharing yours...I do miss Joyce!!!!Hahahaha....

Counting downs already, 4 more days will be my holiday...

However, my mood hasn't been so good as facing problems with my Thesis plus been stunned...

Why always others' people problem I need to be so concern when indeed the involver doesn't feel anything??

And why does people do not think before they talk and act as if they know so much plus always just wanna the be the winner???

And why must need to frown at people???Cannot talk properly at people??Isn't it a respect to people to talk properly to people???

I GOT DISAPPOINTED WITH MANY GUYS!!!!

Anyway, I am still a typical gals who is "small gas:...

People thought I am very big hearted even what sort of hurtful words I can swallow it down....

I just know Herbert not long ago...and his words is so insulting to me...At first I swallow it down cause I keep telling myself, "YC,you shouldn't be so small hearted!!!"

And as I keep swallowing my words, people tends to be crossing the line even more...

I could remember the first time Herbert told me,"If you can slim down, sure lots people will be chasing after you"

What in the world is this phrase to me as I just knw him in less than a month...

And I questioned myself, he knows me so well meh...

How sure is Herbert that no one is after me??And if a guy who loves me will accept everything of me and not asking me to change just because of him...For example, asking me to slim down...If I wana slim down, it should be my business like I myself asking myself to slim down.

And the other day, Herbert asked me,"Hey your stomach pregnant how many months already???"Luckily I was in good mood..I told him actually I already born out the baby already...I thought my answer could stop him... He still further asked, "Wah, your stomach still so big,was your baby twins??Another come out liaw, still got one more, that's why so big"

I wonder how many gals can take all these words...I think I am very small hearted gals...As I cannot take all these words...Does gal need to be respected???And must we be so open hearted till every single words must be swallow into our heart and if we turn our face black, then people will say why this gal so small heart??

The next day, we one gang of people went out again...Went to sing K..

And Herbert was there again...I accidentally pressed the skip button when my frens were singing their songs...I felt so guilty already and everyone keep comforting me it's ok...We can still request the song again...Herbert was frowning at me.."Why you like that, you jealous people singing song is it??Why ...Why..Why...??"

I felt even much guilty by now while others still comforting me...I went out of the room and take some new fresh air while really feeling guilty....Why isn't there any other way to tell people by not frowning at people???

I showed some "face" by telling that Herbert that I dun wanna talk to him..or maybe talk less but he keep bugging me....And because we calculated the bill with some mistakes..He frowned at me again for dunno how many times..I finally lost my temper and I did not talk to him and just act as if I din heard what he said...

Anyway, just partly the story....

Something great...Finish watching "Speech of Silence" and now watching "When a Dog loves a Cat"
This drama turns out to be quite nice rather than what I expected..I thought this drama will be some boring drama...but indeed it was not...It was rather good and interesting...The cat and dog were cute..And to all dog lovers and cat lovers, will for sure like this drama...Hahaha...It was long since last saw Gallen Lo and Myolie Wu...Love Myolie Wu lots!!!Loves her pairing up Ron Ng!!Hahaha...

And still watching The Four....It quite disappointed with this drama,...Sometimes nice, sometimes not..Especially episode 18,real boring!!!!Anyway..that's all for today...No more ramblings!!!

Final Paper...

YES...my last paper 2molo!!!!

Whew...

No mood study at all le...

Will update more soon...

See ya ppl...

I am looking forward for arrival of someone...I miss you so much!!!!

One Down, 3 more to go

During today exam, someone handphone was ringing with a creepy ringtone...

The one which we normally heard from those ghost stories..

"Wo den zhe ni hui lai, wo den zhe ni hui lai..."

So creepy that it freaked me off...

Someone went to the wrong exam hall which made me keep looking at my exam slip fearing that I am that person again as I did some sort of this mistake few year back...

It still haunt me though...

What more I can say...

Now all I have to do is Pray hard...

"God, please continue to give me the faith and determination to get through all these..."

Thanks for those for have prayed for me...

I really appreciate it much and thanks for all the concern...

Now I need to prepare myself for the next challenge...

Development Economics...

Maths Maths Maths...Calculations Calculations Calculations...

Theories Theories Theories...

However, the past experience of my Econs exam kinda haunt me...

Keep bringing down my confident and determination...

Making me feel unwell...

Something wrong with my digestion system...

Anyway, pack my feelings all and put everything a side....

Jia you CHONG YAR CHING....


P/S: *sigh*...How I wish you are here with me..then all my porblems will be solved...Miss you!!

My 100th Post...

Whew..Can't believe I have written so much...

Anyway, this will be a picture post..

UTAR Convo 2008, Ah Min's Birthday, My Jogoya Supper, Plus Lingering At Bintang Circle..

UTAR CONVO 2008

Miaw Miaw, Ah Ren, Joana (One of Chemistry Top Student), Me,
Jiun's Blue Rose, Jiun's Grad Present....



Future QS



Tradition...

Flower pun throw..ADUI!!!



Clearer View...



Ann and Me...All the best in your future...What happened to ur Mickey??



Ah Jiun and Me...

Sorry for the lack of pics from Jiun's Convo to all my beloved Ji Mui..My camera was taken by someone else...So,most of the pics were not taken by me...So dun blame me for poor pics quality yeah...My camera always dunno been take by people...



Jogoya Supper



Miaw and Me..after some food liaw...I think I was chewing some food so cannot open my mouth smile..=)



The happy guys...They can EAT!!!!



Haagen Daaz...My favs, Green Tea and Cookies and Cream...






Omochi..Diff flavour...



Me indulging with ice cream...Yummy!!!



Miaw and Me again...This time I not chewing food...



Environment...Guess my fren is taking pic of pretty gal again...



Another environment of jogoya...



Kian, Me and Miaw..Can see we are contented...



Another shot...



Miaw posing with her fav omochi...



Dunno who is the photographer...Is not me...He claims my camera no anti hand shaking...
GGGrrrrWWWW.....



So happy....With all our hands...





Foods on our table...This is dunno after how many rounds liaw...We can order them to steam fish for us...WWeeeee...




Scallop Siew Mai...Yummy...I was craving for dim sum for so long....



Dunno why he took so many drinks when he is the only one person drinking...Kids!!!



Why such an expression??Too yummy liaw I supposed...


LINGERING AT BINTANG CIRCLE



Starhill and Pavilion...



Acting cute..Mind us..Lucky we did not wear any UTAR t-shirt...



Beloved...



Some show in front of Pavilion Bukit Bintang Entrance...



Uncle dun see us take picture la wei...



Another shot...



PAVILION..Ah Min's fav place..



The Stage..Magical Arabia Nite..



Super high class...



The stage again,..




Know him???Reshmonu...So privilege le me...

But something funny happened...When my friends and I approached him..Resh asked us,where did u come from??Guess what I answered, "Malaysia"...All of my friends stopped and stared at me a while..Miaw told him,"I am from Sarawak" while Kian said "I'm from Kelantan"..

Resh told Kian can see that you are from West Malaysia and You gals from Sarawak...Then we left after that..I did not realised why they stare at me...Kian asked ,"Yar Ching, just now u kacau Resh is it??" I was rather puzzled...I answered,"What did I do??"

Kian said, he thought I answered I am from Malaysia to Resh was something I trying kacau him...Hahaahha....I think I watched too much drama when normal people like us meet artists, when they asked where we from we sure answer our country ma...

Ah Min's 23rd Birthday...

Give Her chicken...She will say "Yippie" to you...

She cant live without chicken...

She is KFC No.1 fans...

Hahaahhaa...



She so happy with chicken...



See..Dun let us eat....Where our bucket??Why give paper box one??



Sorry Ming Ming...Not me take one...Potential KFC ads i guess..



I think Karen admire my back a lots....



Oui nenek, other no need eat meh??



Me in action...Miaw was rather happy...Another chicken lover...



Wah...me in action..stand up liaw....Cos too desperate for chicken..



This two nenek dunno play fire is dangerous...Thought they are nenek liaw..Especially the blue colour shirt one le...





Wah...This even worst....



Wwweeee...A year older..Nearer to be called great grandma...



Adui..dunno who make this cake one...Karen used to like this things lots..Now she bertaubat already..



Happy face...

Next time, to all chicken,when see the blue colour t-shirt face do remember to run for ur life...=)

Drama from this celebration..I did the blurrest thing..I forget bring my memory stick of my digi cam...Adui..End up we cant have much picture...Need squeeze everything into the original memory of my digi cam...ADUI!!!What happened to me always so blur???

Enough craps..need get back to study...

P/S:Dunno why my camera always have lots of weird picture all not taken by me..*blek*

Study Week..

Study Week...

Study Week is a time for studying..

Yeah rite...AS IF..

It's time for me to slack...

Sitting facing the notes...

But my mind melayang dunno to where...

Hahahaha...

Yeah rite...AS IF

Believe me not...

Studying or Slacking??

Ah ha...

Judge it urself...

At the mean it ...

My current mode...

IS THIS...





Aaaawww....

He is so cute...

How I wish can be like him...

Always slacking...

Craps again....

Law has driven me crazy...

Many principles to study...All principles are making me to be a useful person by using LAW..

How to use our rights...

Yeah....AS IF!!!

Now contract admin is making me flipping the PAM Contract like a mad...

38 Clauses...Driving everyone crazy.....

More flipping on 17 September...

Will the first question of the exam asking...

"How many clauses are they in the PAM Contract??"

I will be laughing then...

The PAM Contract is useful..very useful...

Again...YEAH as IF!!!

Yeah,CRAPS again...

A Moment Like This

Thursday, 28th August 2008,

At 8 pm, I was supposed to be sitting on my desk studying for my final, but I was chatting with two persons, planning what to do on Friday, 29th August 2008...

At 940 pm, when I was supposed to be indulging in my Law notes, guess where was I??

Jogoya, having supper....

The supper is super worth as I paid less than usual price as they are having some promotion..

At 12 am, when I was supposed to be in dreamland, I was at Bintang Circle seeing some rehersal by Reshmonu...If you have ever heard It's you that matters which was remade by Evonne Hsu, "Wo yao qing qing wei ni chang shou ge, 我要輕輕為你唱首歌", he is the original singer...

His songs are superb and I managed snap a pic with him...What a lucky day....

On 29th August 2008, our plan the night before at 8pm was been canceled due to Ah Jiun was sick...

So I stayed at home to sleep when I was supposed to be preparing for my FYP Questionaire...

Then, at 1 pm, when I was so supposed to be eating lunch at home..

I was at KFC eating fried chicken...

While I was ordering my fried chicken, I was on the phone with Ah Jiun..

She caught me ordering fried chicken and asked me "You're eating at KFC??"

I asked,"Why you knw??"

She answered,"I heard your conversation.."

Since I was telling the cashier,"Snack plate...Original...Pepsi.."

Hahahaha....

After KFC, when I was supposed to be home, studying...

I am at Carrefour doing some sundry shopping...

Well, I was lucky at least I din spend money on some other stuffs like on cloths..

I have been doing lots shopping recently...

Thanks to my partner in crime..Ah Min...We're crazy over Esprit!!!

Then on 29th August 2008, at 7 pm, the usual time I am having dinner...

Now, guess where am I again??

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On my way to Times Square...

Not for shopping....

Not to dinner.....

Not to meet anyone.......

But to sing K.....

Yippie!!!!!

And at 12 am...when I was supposed to be in my DREAMLAND, where was I again???

Still in Red Box singing K....

We sang till 4 am....Yes, 4 am!!!!

We sang for 9 hours...

Can apply for Guinness Book of Record???

Hahahaa.....

At 5 am, when some people are preparing to go work or maybe morning exercise...

Where were we???

Just got home and prepared go to bed...

It was indeed happening for us...

As we got so high that night singing "Justin Timberlake, SexyBack"

Not forgetting the song which made me so high till I climbed on the sofas..."Jin Ge Jin Qu by Leo Ku"

And "Ricky Martin, She Bangs"....

And lots more song....

Thanks for the great memories all my dear relatives and beloved frens...

Thanks for helping me release my tension and stress....

Thanks to them as it was something to cheer me up since I did not have any good time from my birthday until now...

I have forgotten all my problems...

Really forgotten...

Now, I just left all those things behind me...

I have learnt that "Ignorance is Bliss"

Now Ah Jiun has gone back hometown liaw, when will be our next crazy times??

It is so hard to know...

Best of Luck in everything!!!

Get lost!!!!

"Lawyer" usually tells me or maybe warns me just treat my frens just like normal frens...

Rather,use my heart and everything to treat them good...

I told her, my frens here are still ok la...

We all are good...

However, I am wrong...VERY WRONG!!!

To those people, I am no longer the ME...

If you are mean to me I can even much mean than you...

And please don cross the line...

If one day, I no longer can hold my temper, that's it!!!

I dun wanna cherish anything which does not mean anything to me...

And I mean what I said...

Is it so hard to tell people the truth??

Just tell la, "I got other things to do"

Rather showing the innocent face which indeed you're not indeed you're not...

Stop confessing to people that you never do such things...

Enough is enough.....

You might be the greatest people for some other people...

But, indeed you're not to me...

So,stop acting innocent to me and stop pretending as if you're very good to me...

You're just one of those selfish one who when got problems try find other to help...

When no problems, just put people aside...

You're just using others to find success in your life...

So,get urself far from me..

Dun come near me anymore...

I have enough of you...

Your acting is number 1 in this world...

I will no longer use my true heart treat you anymore since you never appreciated it...

GET LOST..

And stop hurting my frens and ME!!!!

Reflected

It has been weeks since the saga started...

And it is my birthday month...



A month which I was supposed to be real happy and awaiting surprises for me...

I do admit I love surprises...

I got surprises and touched too...

But it is really kinda complicated mixed feelings rather...

While I was really happy, I was kinda worried and guilty over lots of things...

My first birthday celebration,

It should be the last one to be celebrated with all my uni gals...

However, it turns out to be ugly...

Some of them turn up with a rather sour face and some conflict happened which no one ever planned for it to happened...

While my other gals tried hard to help me prepare everything by buying me my favorite cake, Oreo Cheese Cake...

Actually I felt rather like making them spent so much for me on my birthday...

I actually did ask or hint them not to spend so much...

Just like a normal gathering or rather a small outing will be more than enough for me...

I felt so guilty like making everyone spent so much when everyone is facing some kind of financial problems...

I felt rather unhappy when I should feel happy for this grand celebration...

Till today, someone felt so excited called me telling me she was so happy seeing my birthday can be celebrated in such happy ways...

My reaction was rather cool...I do not know why...

And now, the saga continues and everything turned out to be rather complicated...

Involving lots people in..

And no one knows wat happened...

And some have cried, and some worried...

For me, I was rather calm...

I do not know why...

I asked myself, what happened Yar Ching???

I seem like turn out to be some cold-blooded animal...

I thought I will start shedding tears...

Rather, I am not...

I felt like just let everything be la... Nothing I can do also...

But this teach me a lesson...

I should treasure my friendship and this has let me know how precious my friends and those care for me are...

I finally confronted someone..I messaged him by asking him...

"Did you treasure our friendship??I told him I did a lot..."

I did not tell him what happened...I used to think, since he did not treasure it, so let it be...

But deep inside my heart,I knew he will..

Since we have so many conflicts together and I usually throw some stupid tantrums at him...

However, he still always pamper me by usually he is the one like "manja" me back...

That's why I really treasure our friendship...

He is the one who kinda bring me from a real naive gal to the me today...

He shows me the patience and maybe he trust that God will bring me to where I am today...

At here, Shearer, I would like to tell you, Thanks for everything and thanks for showing me the Love, Care and though we seldom keep in touch, I know deep inside your heart you still care for me much...The other day, when u asked me whether did I get well, I felt touch and my heart melts....

I finally know something...

Whenever those I cherish real lots sometimes hurt me, I will usually drop tears from inside my heart...

Usually this tears just roll down on their own,and I cant control it...

And to another my beloved buddies, I will usually message them some stupid message...

Maybe rather I just wanted them to show some attention to me...

*sigh*

Pity them also, I always throw stupid tantrums to them

And yet, they still pamper me so much...

I "heart" them real lots...

They are always here with me though we have been separated real far...

When they told me that they might be coming to celebrate my birthday for me,

I was real happy...Always counting the days...

Though I kept asking them whether are they real free, inside my heart I really want them to come..

I am one of those gals who never tell the true things out...

I really want them come because I really,really miss them...

I just felt like seeing them maybe kinda give me some motivation...

End up, they are real busy and did not come...

Though, one of them real sad, however, I kept assuring her, it's ok..

At that moment, I really didn't feel sad at all...

Cause I know they are busy for their study...

Maybe they felt like they broke their promise again...

But I did not think that way...

Inside my heart, I can feel that they are really passionate to come..

But due to some circumstances, they are unable to come...

It's ok...Really ok...

Here, My loveliest ji mui, though we are far far frm each other, I know our hearts are been binded together...Thanks for all those message..inspirations, supporting and most important those blessings and love you gals have showered to me make me love you gals even more...6 years of friendship and it is still growing!!!But, all these have just made our friendship even better and binded us even closer together!!!

U guys wishes is something which I felt is the greatest gift of everything...

This is something true from the bottom of my heart...

To be honest, I felt happy seeing present...

But I felt really happy seeing messages, cards and wishes...

This is because all of these are something which you really use your heart and said out hoping the person can receive it and have blessings...

Isn't this something much miraculous and wonderful???

One person ever tell me, FRIENDS are like rainbow...They are colourful and they fill up your days

I felt I was really blessed this year...Dunno why this year I just feel like very touched

Just a simple "happy birthday" from people will kinda make me wanna cry already...

And the next day after my birthday, I fell sick and lying on bed not going class...

Some many people worried bout me..messaging me everyday just to see whether I am ok not...

With all their prayers and warmest regards, I got well already...

Though my face real pale now, scare quite a number of people, even myself, but I felt happy because I am consider fit now...

Though sometimes I will feel dizzy and weak...

Suddenly make me miss home so much...

Usually by now, guess my mum will start giving me those stuffs can help my immune system back...

*sigh*

We will never know how good home is until we face problem...

Anyway, so much to rant but...

I dun wan to be called an aunty just because I like to rant...

Hahahaa....

Hopefully everything will turn to be good again..

However, one of the involver in the saga said to me,

Everything can no longer be like last time because she doesnt know how to face us and asked us just let her be...

LET IT BE then...

Nothing can be done...

Just get over it and

LIFE GOES ON!!!

That's the lesson I have really learnt!!!

Since they don't appreciate everything, and maybe everything is already meaningless to them, why should we cry over it then??

If they know how to appreciate everything, and one day there already knew the importance, we will always open our hands widely welcoming them back...

However, I did know how others feel..since their relation is so close rather than us, maybe they think it is hard to accept...

All I can do is ...

PRAY!!!

P/S: I fell on love or maybe it was love at first sight with something...Hoping to own it...Hahahaha..but I know it's hard!!!I really really like it...Can someone buy me???