New Year New Hope

New Year New Hope...I wasn't sure how true this phrase was...But hopefully everything will go well for me in the year ahead...And thanks to my stupid neighbours again...I not sure what they doin...But from the way they talk, guess they are having a game called "card game"...Whenever they scold some foul words take for example "CCB" sure tat word is very loud...Scare as if no one heard....Then, need to "f**k" this then "f**k* that???Oh my....

I miss my house TV and Astro On Demand...Every night I just sit in front of the tv and watch my favourite drama and now I have to download everyday just to watch those drama and I have failed to download those drama a number of times....So sad...I miss HOME!!!This time leaving home makes me feel harder as I found that everything has changed and I thank God for hearing my prayer...Thanks Daddy for always blessing us...

A harder sem will be ahead of me..Met my supervisor and though not much pressure frm him but indirectly maybe tat the pressure...The first words everyone speak to me when they saw me in uni"You're back","You're finally back","YC jie, long time no see".etc. which all these I avoided to answer by just smiling back....

Though not much visiting during this CNY but I had a few great gathering...As like what someone told me, getting older means lazy to go bai nia...I agree finally...I rather spend most of the times sitting down with frens chatting...I enjoy those times...

Everytime before I left Miri for a new semester in KL, there for sure people organising farewell for me which make me so heavy hearted to leave...The last time was at Best Western, this round at Secret Recipe...We went there much earlier cos we know we gonna chat a lot...And yes, we did..the shop seem almost close when we left...I met a person who I have not met for quite long...Tat person still the same...Not much changes...

I cant foresee how my future be...As it is almost time to think about it..When people usually ask me where will I work last time, my answer was usually, "Still long till I graduate"...But, these words cannot be used anymore...It's really time to think...But, I did not think much also...Just let God plan everything for me then...

Just like human and human relationship, it is just like fate where people meet together...Even some people you met for the second time, you can chat like there's no tomorrow...Isn't it wonder??While for those who you think you are close with and maybe you think you can chat a lot, you seems like you got nothing to say but usual stuffs ...I trust it's time for me to let go a lot of stuffs and start appreciating what I have now...Yes,I am appreciating everything around me now..For those I think I should treat them better, I will of course...=)

After everything happened already, I won force anything to happen...I won question people on what they have done etc...I will just question myself, is it a good thing to be learned..If no, then I must filter everything then only start talking....It is sad while some relation need to get until there's no turning back???No matter how good people treat you there seem to be something which have separated everything apart...Maybe sometimes wearing a mask to treat people is better since it's a way to protect us...I sometimes do feel myself very fake but what to do...People are being fake to me at the first place so what's the use when I still treat them good when these people does not even appreciate it???

Through this few months though I have faced some rough times, but thanks to those who were always there supporting me...I do not regret for all those things to happen..Though I sometimes feel disappointed for it to happen, but I look at it positively...It's all happened just to let me know who are those really concern about me..It has strengthen my relationship with some people... Someone told me,"If you think you still have people you can appreciate ur your Uni life, do appreciate them"....=)

Relation

After so many days, those hurtful words are still so fresh in my brain.What more can I say??All have happened already...Anyway, I can't stop how they think or whatever they say...I don't owe them any explanations as I think I do not need explain to them. But someone was very right you know...After all these, I finally know who are those can be called "caring" person to me and who are not...

And maybe someone was really concern and really understand me, someone choose to hide those things from me...But somehow another someone slipped words through mouth...But I guess it has been fated that I should know everything...Though I feel sad or maybe quite hurt with those words, however, it wasn't as sad as I expected...Maybe somehow I already given up my relation with those people...

Someone somehow still choose to be positive..but until everything happened, eyes grew so big...So unbelievable...A chance for you to learn things my dear....Anyway, anyhow...I told myself, whatever I have done is right and I do not need feel a single guiltiness as it was really a way to protect myself...When people do not wanna be honest with you, what's the use you be so honest???

Lesson of the day..."Don't be too HONEST!!!As it might only caused problem to yourselves..."

Or maybe some people will start saying why YC say like this one??Why she is like this??Whatever...I do not need to explain or I do not need to do so much just to please anyone...

Jong's Crocodile Farm Vs John Travolta

Well, well, well...All great things will come to an end...

Anyway anyhow...Memories shall remain...

The other day, when 5 ladies went out for dinner...The conversation begins when ML was talking about John Travolta about how nice his movie was when our dear SF said, "I din know who is John Travolta but I know Jong's Crocodile Farm"...The other us all stunned and laughed loudly...SF got serious, "Seriously, I din knw ma" Hahahaha.....Joke of the day...

And then, the next time 3 of us went for tea at Coffee Bean..Guess the whole coffee bean was our voice cos we talked so loud..Maybe suppose is two...ML voice not so loud...Got lots things update and we even use Coffee Bean tissue to copy address for our survey questionnaire...Isn't survey questionnaire torturing us???

Well, the CNY songs have been repeated over and over again on my lappy Windows Media Player,

And someone who is crazy on the CNY songs from my lappy with full blast,

As if like everyone loves to hear,

I found it quite ashame...

When we heard the CD have been released, we went to hunt the CD...

End up we listen over and over again...

And now, each shop we went, all is airing the same CNY songs...

I still think their CNY songs the best....

Hahaha....

The shop I went in was airing theirs, the next shop I went in is still theirs and the third one...Still them...

And the car I sat in, is theirs, the next car I sat in, still theirs...

Everyone loving them???HHHmmmm...

And I haven been downloading anything for quite sometime, the line is slow...

Or maybe not the line, is the stupid uploader website...

SIENZ...

I was some sort happy when I got the news..I almost jumped up of joy from my chair....It still something private which I dun wanna share out yet unless you are someone worth I share with...

Now listening to "庆祝"...Really nice!!!

Someone said I am crazy because I clapped my hand while listening to those songs...What la!!!

Anyway, that's all....

Since Long

It was since long after my last post...Hahahaha....How was I doing???Busy with my thesis...Yeah,I am not slacking liaw and seeing the changes days after days after all the stuffs I was undergoing, it was really worth it....

And seeing my next semester timetable, I almost fainted seeing it...*sigh*...What a lame time table is all I can say..I will miss my first few weeks of classes...And everything maybe can be said is none of my business...

The other day, while I was immersing myself in the drama I was watching, my tears just cant stop rolling and *someone* surprised me from behind..."Why are you crying my dear?Who bullied you?" Well, the drama was too touching especially towards the ending...



Yes, I was watching "C'est La Vie Mon Cheri"..I have longed to watch this drama and thanks to "you" for letting me able to watch this drama which I longed to watch...This drama has been based on the famous Hong Kong drama starring Anita Yuen and Lau Ching Wan...Some may say this drama is quite boring, but it is nice for me...The English name is called Endless Love and the theme from this drama is nice...The one by Fiona Sit is quite touching especially with those sad scenes..Oh man, my tears just can't stand...

Currently downloading lots of music and to Miss Blinkie, I still haven got my Mayday album but manage download it online...And manage downloaded Bosco Wong new song,"All Angles Loving You"..Man, I cant believe he can sing also...Hahahaha....

Oh how was my Christmas...One word,SUPERB....With several parties and outings plus able to get to the church service...hahahaa...Isn't it superb???

Anyway, that's all for this round...Hahaha...

P/S:Blinkie, what pictures did you mean????

Christmas

I want this....

I WANT this.....

I WANT THIS....

AAAARRRGGGHHHH.....wanna pre-order it before I holiday but I did not know how to read the promo and did not know how to pre-order it...

And now, I am far far far away....Haiyo...

Anyway, I am currently undergoing some hard tasks here...It really tough but I am determine that I can get through all these....Keeping my faith strong...I have no other option other than the current one....And thanks to those who are beside me giving me supports...Mr doctor tell me that it takes long but now is the first round...And thanks to Mr Doctor for helping me and slowly explained everything to me...THANKS!!!!!

I will post up other pictures soon about my trip...See ya people!!!!

You're the one...

You know what...I am tired guessing what people are thinking...I thought that I have let go everything..but indeed I am not...Yesterday,after chatted with you so long, I realised that Ido still mind everything...Maybe you're right, I should not mind so much as nothing I can do to change the whole situation...Further, you think that I have done more than enough...After listening to your words and I recall back and put everything back into pieces..One by one like jigsaw puzzle, indeed yes I am...Thanks for reminding that...

I am those who tends to think a lot...Though sometimes I keep telling myself, let go...and I thought I have let go, but I am not...And you're right, if I really dun mind all those things,well maybe I may have given up tat person...You're so right!!!

And you tell me that it good that I start keeping things from other people, and do not tell out my things as often as like I used to be, you also tell me that I should not trust people so easily and must have borders...Though I jokingly tell you that you are one of those people I should beware of which almost drive you crazy...Hahahaha.....

Maybe this is the way they are already....Their judgment will never change about people though some people have changes already...Mindset this is what I called...Sometimes, maybe we just need to jump out from our world and try to think the positive side and not just always grab those negative side...But what to do, some people are easily been influenced by others and slowly without any realization they have changed to be another bunch of same human....But, I do sometimes think, do they ever think how do other feel when they implemented their action???For example, some people maybe like feel real happy to tell someone else what happened to them, but the response been get is like no response..It's just like the feeling one pot of cold water been splashed and spoil those people mood...

And what I can say is everyone condition is so different...We were born out not to be a perfect person..We slowly learned, changed, learned, changed...and the cycle just go on...And why don't we just give each other a opportunity to understand each other more or just been some mindset about others??Why don't just give you yourselves another chance to understand other better maybe they do have changes???

Further, we cannot say what other think is wrong...like what I said before, everyone condition is not the same...you may live your life perfectly without any worries and been protected so well...Some people are just in some turmoils which no one can understand..Every decisions made or just anything may not be what they want..But why should we judge that the action done by others is wrong when indeed you did not understand the whole bunch of craps at all???Who do not want to live in some life where it is problem free??Who wan to live in a life full with obstacles which sometimes it just so hard to handle???

Anyway, I am currently still on holiday with the "someone" which I have always mentioned...I do love surprises and thanks for your surprises...I have extended my holiday to dunno when...Depends on how everything goes...

Lastly, I just wanna clarify here, I am not a person who loves to find out other people secret or anything about others which got nothing or benefited me at all....I enjoy my current life now,so just leave me alone!!!GET A LIFE!!!!

P/S:I got a message from my bestest buddy just now...I do miss you my buddy since so long we did not meet...But cherished you as my best buddy forever..Though our relation now has been not as close as we used to be, but I know no matter what, you are always there sharing all my ups and downs and also me sharing yours...I do miss Joyce!!!!Hahahaha....