Why??

Why...and why and why???

Sometimes I also dunno why there a lot of "Why"

Anyone any suggestion on what should I do with all this "Why"??

Please someone tell me "Why" then??

Rainbow After the Storm..

I had a really bad day on Saturday..Things dun go well as we have planned..Worst still, something pop up in the middle which have caused my day to get even worse...Hearing Daniel Powter singing "Bad Day" to me!!!

Sunday, "White Misty" knew what happened to me the day before and decided to bring me out to somewhere where we recently like to hang out and I enjoyed something which has made my day back...

Introducing...

Oreo Cheese Cake...

Super Duper yummy!!!Thanks for making my day "White Misty"...

Then after the cake, my day has really come finally..Yesterday, I received an email from my supervisor and his words have given me more confident in doing my FYP!!thanks!!!

Well,4 more weeks I be leaving here..There so much things that I felt like doing and going..Here come the list..

(1)Going to the beach (Esplanade,Tanjung,etc)

(2)Going Marina Bay

(3)Eastwood Valley Golf and Country Club for the fresh air plus the nice scenary

(4)Dinner at Secret Siamese, Miri Cafe, Best Western..(Secret Siamese has very nice pizza!!really nice)

(5)More Oreo Cheese Cake..(I'm addicted already)

(6)Hang out with my girlfriends...(Gonna miss them heaps when I leave here)

(7)Our planned road trip..(the percentage of this to work out is quite small)

Last week,finally we went for dim sum already after long planning and "Dazzling Purple" kept falling sick..She is still sick now though..Din take good care of herself...The dim sum is super nice...

The day before we went to Secret Siamese for the pizza...We have always wanted to try but no chance..Finally,we have already..and the pizza is really nice!!!

Preparing my FYP while enjoying life at home...And I still dunno what kind of hairstyle should I get this round...Maybe should just ask my hairsylist..Recently I have watched a few dramas "War of In Law II" and "The Seventh Day"...Both of it are nice especially Wars of In Law II as it more comedy type drama..Currently watching "Word Twisters Adventures"..Also another nice drama..

And I am also busy watching "One Million Star" on Astro..It such a nice show especially those people inside this competition are all so talented..The current one I am watching is the second season where Eric Lim from Malaysia will be competing in..Hopefully I can watch it before I say goodbye to my nest...

Much Thoughts...

I still have 4 more weeks to be here in Miri before I returned back to Uni for another new sem...My feelings are very complicated...Really complicated...While doing my industrial training, I desperately wanted to end the training soon because I was really tired working..Every morning,I woke up asking myself,why should I wake up so early??At first,I was really excited..slowly I got tired...Lots people asked me,"I thought you enjoy ur training very much?"..Well,I did not further elaborate...

Yeah,my training was ok..My manager,supervisors,colleagues were all treating me very good..it's VERY GOOD!!They did not give me any pressure in handling the works in hand and I was given the chance to lead some newcomers too...Then,another question come,"Will you go back there work after you grad??"...I've asked all my buddies..None will want to get back to their company work after grad..Weird scenario rite??All of us can't find an answer towards this question on why we did not want to get back to the company...

For me,the company I worked with can be consider quite small though the name seem to be quite big...However,when you worked there,you can find out that the works there are not quite systematic and no one have the rite to say anything other than Mr Manager..Yeah,he never scold me or watever,but he just have tat kind of "strong" power that will scare you off and when he suddenly talked loudly inside his room and since I did not understand what is he talking(he is speaking with his mother tounge language and I am not speaking it),I got scared and trying to find a place to hide...Sometimes,he was just joking with those people..However,sometimes he is really scolding those people!!!I guess the company just won provide enough room to grow...

Then the other day,someone asked me,"You wanna work in big company??Very stressful le..."Indeed,this is another good question...Me and Miss Workaholic dicussed this and we have the same perception...If we did not use the first few years after we graduate to fight,then when should be the time then??And I was thinking the person who asked me this question was thinking to go to big company to work too...Dunno why,I just feel there is a gap between us already..Sometimes I feel that they do not understand me much,while I did not understand them much too...

We used to quite close..So called close...I was wondering did time changed them or have I changed myself??I found that our conversations were no longer that sincere like last time....Maybe someone was really right,tat was their their attitude...They are always like that just that I did not realize last time...I really dunno....

Then,it came to once,many people thought that me and Momo and Tata were very the close..I also think that myself...Slowly I realize we cannot be the closest one like what people think...I know everyone have their own privacy..I found that I was like a stranger to them...Whenever they asked me.."Where you wanna go??"..For those who have known me and really understand me,when I said "Anything",I really mean anything...Then,they will say just voice out la you usually got lots opinions..I felt hurt with those words..I dunno whether did they mean it or not..Maybe they just jokingly said it,However I felt hurt with those words..When I shared this with someone,they asked me,I thought you were always easy going...

And slowly,I no longer wanted to show my heart out...I have tend to keep myself now..Workaholic asked me,you no longer showing yourself out...Did anything happen??At first I did not tell workaholic much..She gave me lots room and using all the times she with me and changed me back again...And now,I am back to the person who will usually express out everything...Thanks to Workaholic!!!

I am now enjoying my life here before I get back for new sem...Excited and Complicated..Excited is because I still think study life is the best!!Complicated is because is my final year..and I need to work extra hard for my FYP and to chase back my grads!!!

Well,when I have time will update bout my genting and Setiawan trip...

P/S:The story above were from some of my fren and not myself...Names have been changed to keep privacy..

Something Worth to Take A Moment..

Yes...I have ended my 6 months industrial training and handed in my report..My fingers are kept crossed...This report meant so much to me...Though some may think why should I put such high hope on it then??It's my chance to pull back my cgpa to a better grade..I hope I can graduate with a good result and not a BEST result!!!

Lots of thoughts have been poured into my mind...I kept thinking like why are humans so hard to please???Do we live just because to fulfil other people wish and hope??Do they know how to compromise then??

Some people may seem to be like friendly and nice, but inside...*sigh*..SPEECHLESS!!!!

Some people you may think you have understand them much, indeed you're not!!!They are just strangers to you.. They seem to be once someone you have known them lots, but did anything changed them??Did environment change them or have time changed them then???

I am currently struggling with my final year project again...And please don't misunderstand me..I did not regret choosing the supervisor!!!He has been the greatest supervisor giving me lots of guidance and help!!!It's my own problems and words just could not express my feeling now...

P/S:I am speechless...Can someone please save me???

An Update Requested!!!

Hey guys...how's everyone doing??

I am currently doing my industrial training in Miri...Life in Miri is great!!!At home enjoying and with all my beloved buddies around..Well,isn't it wonderful???

The company I currently doing my training is great..Colleagues have been helpful and I am learning lots not only regarding my field!!!Everyday is a new challenge for me and I will not know what is ahead of me..And I am waiting for these challenges!!!

Recently, there are lots of changes...But I guess these changes are something unavoidable...Miri is changing,Buildings are changing into new style,Trees are growing up and Humans are changing too...Maybe I should look at the brighter side..All these changes will bring something great to each and everyone of us...

We have held a quite number of gathering and I think meeting up with old friends are great..Laughing and we all do agree Form 6 time was the best..Though storm is coming,everyday is simple and happy without any worries..Just need to worry wat to eat for lunch after school..hahaha=)
Last nite met up wit Lawyer,Miss Blurry and Miss Lady..The dinner was nice especially with Lawyer..She can joke very well and even talk..Well,future Lawyer bo...Dun forget our next gathering ah!!!Before Miss Lady depart back to the Island of Fast Car!!!

Utar will be starting a new sem...Miss Cowie will be in her final year!!Good Luck..And I won be heading back KL this round!!hehe...*Happy*New year will be coming!!!

New Year Resolution"
(1)Hope everyone will stay healthy and happy always
(2)Hope Global Warming will not get worse..The Earth is sick now and everyone has the responsibilities to protect the Earth!!!
(3)Hope everything will go well for me in my Final Year and my FYP!!
(4)May I graduate in time with a good result

Should I Be Happy or Sad??

Disappointed with myself...I did badly in today exam...I dunno what happened to me,but I was having mental block..All the things which I supposed to know how to do become dunno how to do...

What happened to me??

Current health status:Good!"Aunty" packs bag and went back hometown

Current mood:Better than in noon..At least I have got over it

Current motivation status:Unmotivated...still I need pull myself to study for the next paper on Thursday!!!

All I can say is I am even sadder than I cant watch Mayday after today exams..I almost break down and cried but I was holding back my tears whole day....

Be tough,Cowie!!!Hang on There!!!Stay brave and stay the same!!!

My brother smsed me giving me those words..very encouraging words which some sort enlightened me and I almost cried because touched with his words..Half way dinner,he called up again to check I am alright..Very touch!!!

P/S:I am really disappointed with myself..First time ever....

Oh No...

Sorry for the lack of updates...

Was planning to update regarding the firework competition held in Putrajaya with tons of pics...Lack of time!!!

Busy preparing myself for the exam...

On the other hand,today,8/9/2007 is MAYDAY showcase in KL and I am extremely disappointed cause I din manage get myself tickets to go watch them...But I comforted myself,just a showcase and I still can go watch their concert!!!Still the feeling still bad whenever I saw them on TV,which was yesterday..Randomly was watching TV around 2 pm which I rarely do,and they appeared on TV...While listening to radio,usually their songs will suddenly airing!!!And now,my laptop is playing their songs again!!!

Arrrgghhhh....Wat happened to me??

Mayday,mayday,mayday,mayday!!!

Should pack my feelings into a bag and threw it far far away..I must focus on my Final!!!

Last but not least,

MAYDAY ROCKS!!!!

P/S: My mood is swinging on a swing...Maybe due to my health condition is kinda not that good...Just pray hard to God that I will get well soon!!!Listening to Mayday "Angel" which I usually listened when I wanna motivate myself!!!